Hi Dad. Thinking of you on what would have been your 81st birthday xxxx

Doing it tonight, as tomorrow I won’t be in a good place. I will be thinking of you on Father’s Day and not a day goes by that I wish you were here to give me guidance. You would love your daughter-in-law, she keeps me going, seeming I’m enemy number 1 with my own daughter. Father’s Day will be 9 years since my friend Paddy left this world, so lots of thoughts in an already busy head. See you soon dad x

Well dad, things are difficult at the moment. My mind is doing the usual, focussing on everything that’s gone wrong. Nearly 27 years of marriage with a loving and supportive wife seem to be the only thing I have being done right. I have failed in every other department, with being a father my biggest disaster. I never thought I would be hated so much by my offspring, but it is what it is, a scary minefield. The feelings that won’t leave my mind alone, along with my physical ailments, leaves me wondering what’s my purpose any more. At times, I just want it all to end. Who knows, I may be with you sooner than expected, so here’s hoping when I do join you, you’ll be there to give me the hug I’ve so long needed and wanted, since the cruel day you were taken away from us. Love you dad 😥❤️‍🩹